Finding Your Passion

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So, firstly, there are no exact answers to this question or any specific formula that should be followed to get a perfect result. Finding and following your passion can be one of the hardest things to do.

I have found that there is a lot of pressure on people these days to figure out what they want to do and make sure they complete it and “make something of themselves.” In my own life, I have struggled to figure out exactly what to do. I always thought I had a plan, and I would structure my plan intensely…..until I changed my mind. At 5, I wanted to be a missionary. At 7, I wanted to be a missionary cowgirl. At 10, I wanted to be a missionary doctor or a scientist. At 12, I was set on being a large animal vet – I wanted to focus solely on horses because they were my favorite animal. When I discovered I couldn’t pass science and Chemistry to save my life, I really wasn’t sure what to do.

Then, one day, at the end of my junior year, I woke up one morning and felt God telling me to be an English teacher. So, I started pursuing that. I had honors in English each year of high school, took a dual enrollment class at the local university in English and passed with an A, and I had a whole degree plan centered around what I had decided to do – a Bachelor’s in English and a TESOL degree. TESOL is Teaching English to Speakers of Other Languages. Basically a glorified ESL degree.

I am now 19, married, and am 9 credits away from my Bachelor’s in English. I haven’t started my TESOL yet, but I had the great opportunity to get a year of experience teaching adults and children online while earning my degree.

Lately, I’ve been stuck in a rut. I’ve been wondering what the point is to finishing school…wondering if I even need to finish. I’ve been thinking that maybe it was just feminist society that brainwashed me into thinking that, as a woman, I had to go and get a career because I can in this day and age. I really didn’t know. I’ve had it on my heart forever to be a wife and a mom.

After I got married, 99% of the stress, anxiety, worries, and fears I had faded away and I can honestly say that I have never been so peaceful in all of my life. I’ve realized that right now in my life, I’m not dying to have a career, be rich, or earn lots of money with a job for myself. Having this time in marriage to really consider my life, my desires, and my Jesus, I’ve figured something out – which is the whole point of this rambling blog post; sorry.

HERE IT IS:

When you find what inspires you, that’s a good indicator of what you might be passionate about.

BUT

Finding what inspires you, gets your gears moving AND ALSO makes you feel peaceful, content, and anxiety-free is – I’ve found – the number 1 indicator that this is your calling in life. God designed you for something specific – he didn’t design you for something you’d hate or something that would suck the life out of you – although He does give grace for those situations. He created you for a purpose and He knows exactly what will give you peace, joy, and contentment in life. 🙂

I’ve felt lately from Jesus that things worked out the way they did for a reason. I am finishing my Bachelor’s because He wanted me to. I know that despite the stress school has caused me and the work I put into it to get the degree, I have been wired, created, and prepared by God to be a wife and mother.

No amount of feminist crap (sorry people) will change my mind. For me, Christ is my fulfilmentP. I don’t need a crazy education and a high-paying career path for me to feel like “I’m a woman.” God has created me for a purpose and I just wanted to share tonight how happy I am that I have found my passion: I want to be a Mom.

Thank you, Jesus that I have motivation to finish out my Bachelor’s degree. I pray that you would bless me with children and allow me to be the best mother I can be.

What is your passion? Let me know; I’d love to hear it! Also, if you’re struggling with finding your passion or stressing out about life in general (BEEN THERE), let me know and I would love to pray for you. I heard a great verse today at my sister’s graduation ceremony:

Proverbs 31:25 KJV

Strength and honor are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come

~ Makayla

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